It feels like I've been on the receiving end of some kind of sick joke these last 5 years.
I've spent years applying for jobs that won't even give me an interview.
My university course got shutdown just over a year into studying due to disorganised/negligent staff.
Last year, I finally got my first job at 22 but didn't last 3 months before fucking it up.
Trying to squeeze proof of separation from them has been a nightmare and I can't get unemployment assitance until they cooperate. Centrelink seemingly moving the goalposts and not accepting the alternatives that they themselves offered.
It feels like the world just wants me to jump through hoops, then at the very end is a note telling me to go fuck myself.
I'm not sure if I'm an idiot or a victim but one thing is certain: I'm exhausted.
I don't know how or when my situation is ever going to improve. I'm ready to just stop trying.
MahalK
Never stop trying, mate. It sucks that you have to go through all of that crap, but don't stop. You will get through this. You will eventually make a break through and have the good times and blessings that you definitely deserve. Moments and even almost all the time things are telling you to go fuck yourself, but no. You can tell them that they can go fuck themselves since you will get through this shit. When it get's too much to bear, take a break, but don't straight up give up. Persevere for the future that you want and you will definitely get, man. You've already been through so much, you can't give up now. Also, you definitely don't have to take on all the hardships and stress alone. If you ever need someone to talk with to just let stuff out of your head, go for it. Here for you. It's not much, but here for you if you need a listener. You're 10/10, man.