Hi guys. This is the obligatory "yes I'm working on it" post for a fifth chapter of BE. I want to say by the end of this one, the comic will have finally eclipsed Death Clown in terms of page count. We'll see.

Progress has been slow since July was mostly dedicated to art fight. I started working on a 7th page (not including cover art) the other day. I've already had a few rounds of spending a full day on a single panel only to finish and realise "that doesn't work, I'll have to start over tomorrow" so we're well and truly back in business. I would've liked for it to get done faster but there's a lot twisting my nuts right now psychologically. Being 25 with no future gives you a lot of time to reflect, I guess.

People that know me well enough know I have more mental illnesses than a twitter bio. I try not to talk about it much anymore but I feel like I've accidentally made things harder for myself that way. When your brain doesn't process information the same way most people's do and has unusually strong/weak reactions to inconvenience/stress, you kinda have to tell your friends/coworkers/boss/agent/provider/etc what the hell your problem is. I don't know what looks more professional at this point. Would they be more forgiving if they knew I had spaghetti-code brain or would they just drop me faster?

I know a lot of these things are solvable, but I'm still trying to find where "you'll be fine, see a shrink" ends and "this is something you have to live with" begins. I'm not sure if I'll ever have stability but I'll be sure to use the anguish of not having it as motivation at the gym so I can one day punch a hole through the Earth.

All that to say, a bit of frustration helps me work on BE, but not when it makes me lightheaded. The usual cures aren't helping so I'm just gonna have to wait this one out. Maybe next week will be more productive.

Wish I had a more positive note to end this one on.

I beat Doom Eternal on Nightmare at the end of July. It wasn't that bad.