Hi everyone. No funny business this time.

First of all, I went to the Newgrounds meetup in Melbourne on the 17th and it was fucking sick. It was nice meeting some of you guys, even if a worrying amount of people now know what I look like. I've become a lot more private since the incident in 2022 but I'm glad I came.

With that out of the way, I had another MRI scan last week which I've just got the results for today and they're worrying to say the least.

Some of you might remember the end of last year when I was diagnosed with Optic Neuritis (swelling of the optic nerve that left me blind in one eye). ON is usually an early sign of Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and is especially rare in men, but none of the blood tests I took brought up anything weird at the time and I don't have a family history of the disease so we just let that one slide under the assumption I was an extremely rare case.

Which brings us to the present. Last week's scan revealed I still have swollen nerves, which is weird because I can see out of both eyes just fine (for now), but I do occasionally get headaches behind my left eye. The part we're particularly worried about now is signs of demyelination of my corpus callosum. In layman's terms, the two halves of my brain are disconnecting. This could be for a number of reasons. It would be weird if I were diagnosed with MS now considering it's usually genetic but I've had shittier luck before I guess. I don't have a prognosis so I'll hold off on announcing that I'm dying for now, but something has gone horribly wrong in my head (again). Unfortunately I was not sent images from the scan but here are the notes.

So yeah. Turns out I'm a lot more fucked in the head than I thought. Truly the inside of my skull is a bottomless void of suffering and nightmares. I'll be getting another MRI done on my spine so we'll see what that looks like.

Until then, uhh... fuck.

UPDATE 25/08/2024: owgh me 'ead

You can see a few areas in these images where there's a little black/white spot buried deep in my head. That's a brain lesion (FUCK). There's probably more but that one is the most noticeable/consistent and the one that caused the most worry. These are low quality pics and I'm not a doctor (obviously) so there's probably a few things I'm missing. Hopefully they don't find more.