Bit of an update on my health because a lot has changed over the last 48 hours. In my last post I said they have no idea what's going on in my head but after today I've learned that it's more like no one knows what they're fucking doing.

Yesterday I went to the eye and ear hospital because my GP was worried I still have Optic Neuritis based on my recent MRI images. That turned out not to be the case and persistent swelling/pain is normal in former ON patients, or so they say. Recent events have made it very difficult to believe even trained professionals.

To cut straight to the chase, Multiple Sclerosis is back on the table despite being specifically told earlier this week I don't have it. Somehow the place I got my imagining done lost my first set of MRI scans from last year (which explains why I never got to look at those) and now that they've been found, they're saying I might have it. I don't know how they managed to fuck up like that. This shit cost me $600 which is a lot of money when you're an unemployed webcomic artist with an entire psych ward in your skull but I guess they dropped their USB stick in the toilet or something. Good fucking job there.

On the bright side I now have two referrals to neurology clinics so hopefully that does SOMETHING to say "this situation is urgent, get this fucker an appointment right now" but I could be waiting weeks, or even months. Let's hope I'm still in the early stages by then.

Fuck I wish this shit would end. I've felt like I've had comically bad luck for a very long time with the way everything seems to fall apart around me. That's gonna be the ultimate "fuck you" if I end up spending 2024 in the gym only to spend 2025 in a wheelchair. It makes me wonder why I even make an effort if I'm just going to be unceremoniously sent back to square one every single fucking time.

I'm just gonna shut my mouth about this whole thing until I either get a definite answer or I lose control of my bodily functions (they seriously told me to call them if I start shitting myself) because clearly between all the being pushed around and sent to all these places, both public and private, there's either been a breakdown in communication or everyone just forgets how to do their jobs around me.

I'll let you know when they get their shit together.