It feels like I've been on the receiving end of some kind of sick joke these last 5 years.
I've spent years applying for jobs that won't even give me an interview.
My university course got shutdown just over a year into studying due to disorganised/negligent staff.
Last year, I finally got my first job at 22 but didn't last 3 months before fucking it up.
Trying to squeeze proof of separation from them has been a nightmare and I can't get unemployment assitance until they cooperate. Centrelink seemingly moving the goalposts and not accepting the alternatives that they themselves offered.
It feels like the world just wants me to jump through hoops, then at the very end is a note telling me to go fuck myself.
I'm not sure if I'm an idiot or a victim but one thing is certain: I'm exhausted.
I don't know how or when my situation is ever going to improve. I'm ready to just stop trying.