Why can you create 23 pictures (this year) without us telling every little detail but are not able follow the instructions on the box of spaghettis to cook it?
It sounds like you are trying to make it more complicated then it needs to be. Lets say you start with spaghettis instructions on the package, but I complain. So what? What is going to happen if I don't like spaghettis or your art? Am I going to threaten your life & beat you to death? Will I throw the food out & then wine about how we are going to starve to death because your father does not make enough money for you to waist food & its all your fault that you are making me hurt you, until you are afraid to make any decisions with out my approval & even then I will still complain? Will you just eat the food & go, gee I should have made sauce, oh well.
For that matter what happens if I actually like the food? Its it going to bring peace to the world & end wars & crap?
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I don't think you understand. The 23 pictures I've created this year are the result of a skill I've been honing for decades. I'm not trying to make things complicated, I'm searching in my head for answers that just aren't there. What you're describing sounds more like an anxiety disorder/paranoid delusions than a learning disability. I'm gonna have to find a better way of describing it.
I think talking to more people about these things will help you in the long run, Your on newgrounds a lot, a place where people can network and critique and help others. Feel comfortable being in it and get to know other artist and people, there this guy called Xinxinix who streams daily at 3:00, he's a cool dude and would definetly appreciate you as a person and your art. There are many more people as well, but I don't know all of em. Its a way to feel like people can understand you.
Another thing to is you should keep motivating yourself to accept who you are, and use that to channel and fight those negative feelings. I know being in a motivation rut can be stressfull because it involves so many things in your life, but you have to tell your self to find ways to help and improve youself, allow yourself to challenge your mind. When you come across problems you see in yourself. Seek answers by living in the moment.
I'm no therapist or social worker, but a fan of your work and a friend. hopefully this advice and other people words can atleast help guide you somewhere. Just hang in there, things will get better, promise only yourself that.
Its also good your taking the time to talk to your fans about things you have on your back.
Are you me?
I have "mild" autism and feel like i'm on the verge of losing my job. Never paraded my autism for similar reasons as you as well. Only thing i don't have going on is hallucinations.
FelipeNoel
i know very as to how you feel around people and the pain it accuses, but i still believe it pain others if ever decided to go through what you said. This is a tired point as you said, but life isn't about pleasing others as much as it is more trying to find your own place by yourself and enjoying. I hope these words serve of any service for you