Hello worms.

Horrid New Year and thanks for reading the first chapter of Bury Everyone.

Firstly, I'm sure most of you have noticed a lot has changed since the Death Clown days. The old website is unfortunately down, but I'm thinking of sticking an archive up here (or somewhere) for the sake of preservation if you guys would want that, even if I think the new material is better.

Some questions you probably have:

Why the title change?

Bury Everyone used to be called "Death Clown" but partway through working on that I learned there's already a comic called "Dead Clown" from the 90s and I wanted the first result on Google. Also saves me from potential legal bullshit.

Why is Epper like that?

This is probably the main thing the old readers want to know. Epper has always been somewhat of a comfort character for me and it's been a pretty fucked up year for old Grumpy, so I've dragged her (and the rest of the series) into the depths of despair with me. I also feel the cynicism is appropriate given her line of work and it's a lot easier to write.

What the fuck is Tickles?

Part of the problem I was having with Death Clown towards the end was I found it boring and unsatisfying to draw. The reason Tickles is a grotesque mass of flesh now is because it was the kind of thing I would doodle in my high school work books when I was bored. Drawing him now is almost like meditation for me. Entrails helps me de-stress I guess. As for why he's grafted to Epper, that was actually an idea I had for later on in DC and brought forward.

Why so long?

Ironically, to make it easier to get through. One of the missteps I feel with the Sore arc of DC was its length and how broken up it was as an opener. I figure one big long chapter is an easier read than 10 short ones, but that may have been undone by the limitations of Newgrounds only allowing a certain number of pages (not a big deal). It'll make sense when its all been compiled on a new site.

Where is Crust

He's within us all.

Why so edgy?

In May of 2023 I had a traumatic experience at my last job.

I swear all of what you're about to read is true. You might want to skip this part.

While I was waiting to get on the bus home, the driver told me a passenger was having heart problems and tasked me with getting an AED from inside (literally 50 meters away). With very little time, I did what I was I told. Touching that thing was like opening Pandora's Box. The very first thing I heard when I grabbed it was "put that back."

Not "what do you need that for? Do you know how to use that thing?" but "put that back."

At this point a crowd is gathering, including one store manager who comes to the front and attempts to gaslight me into thinking the person having a heart attack is in her store. I end up being told to stay where I am for 10 - 15 minutes and wait for security, who puts it back in its box and tells me it's not allowed to leave the building.

I have no idea if the passenger survived. It still makes me lightheaded.

I've made it no secret that I have very little faith in humanity, even before this experience, but I had no idea how disgusting regular people (not the rich and powerful) could truly be up until that day. It was like watching the curated image that every person on Earth sets up for themselves shatter right in front of me. Like I could suddenly see right through all 8 billion of them, expecting to find a rotten soul, but instead finding nothing.

I started working on Bury Everyone in June.

One of the main things I was worried about in writing for BE was that people would pick up on the misanthropy and nihilism and dismiss it as edgelord "we live in a society/we are the virus" wank. I considered toning it down a few times but ultimately decided against it. I've always believed that it's better for art to be genuine than to try and please everyone. This story will be ugly and a lot of people won't like it for that fact, but it's mine.

Things to improve:

• Inconsistent art: This is the main one. If I could go back and do the chapter again I would try to do it faster. The 6 months I spent working on it lead to inconsistencies in the art as I was still learning new techniques/brushes as I was working on it. The first few pages are especially weird since many of the panels were recycled from test pages I did back in March, which are now nearly a year old. Most of this is a consequence of the chapter's length.

• Sprout design: The choice to make Sprouts less humanoid and more grotesque was intentional and more fitting tonally, but I feel Scab's design made him difficult to convey in action scenes.

• Pacing: I feel like the second act moved way too fast. Maybe it works to convey the panic, but I also kinda don't like drawing action (unless Voca is involved). I could still be burnt out after DC. Future chapters will most likely be more measured.

• Thumbnailing: I have a bad habit of not sticking to my thumbnail sketches and dedicating more or less panel space to certain moments when it comes time to actually draw them. Because of this I had no idea how long the chapter would actually be until it was over, only that it would be around 70 pages (it ended up being 87). It's probably something I should have down during drafting to save myself from stressing.

• CSP comic templates: They're very limiting. Actually drawing the panel frames myself instead of using a tool could allow for more freedom and better composition, but could result in growing pains as I get used to it.

• Blue: I'm sick of it. Next chapter is gonna be red.

Well that's it! I've got some patreon rewards to draw now. See you in the next one!

I figured I might as well have some kind of indicator of progress for people who read/liked the series but aren't members of my patreon. I feel like the occasional WIP panel isn't really a good metric, so I'm gonna update this thing weekly. It's more just for old readers so feel free to ignore if you don't know/care.

The Resurrection

I'm rebooting my series Death Clown, which I started to take my mind off university after my course was shut down due to staff disorganisation in 2019. I became disillusioned with the series around chapter 9. It was taking too long to update, certain life events kept getting in the way and I wasn't a fan of the early chapters and pacing. I kept thinking I could do better. After chapter 10 I decided not to continue. Unfortunately I suck at keeping promises.

The rewrite I'm working on is effectively a more condensed version of chapters 1 - 10 of the old series with a few changes in regards to events/characterisation/design. It's taking a long time but so far I'm enjoying this more. Some of the changes include:

• More focus the world.
• More focus on Epper's character and job.
• Making the sprouts more grotesque.
• Saving certain characters for later. Seriously, please don't ask me when X character is coming back. Just because I'm easier to reach than Toby Fox doesn't mean I'm going to tell you what's going to happen in future chapters. Believe it or not, creators like to keep secrets. PLEASE have patience (yes this is something I have to deal with).
• A surprise.

I hope my old readers understand my reasoning and will return for the new series. I think it's gonna be good. Even if it takes a while. Here's the part you came here for.

Keep in mind the speed/consistency of updates depends on my circumstances that week including:

• employment/commissions/other obligations
• How demanding that weeks pages are
• Whether I'm burnt out or channeling the Gods
• Sometimes I just want a break

Progress

March - October 2023:

• 70 page outline completed in March
• Future drafts have gone up to 80 - 90 pages
• Scrapped 2 "finished" versions between March and June while experimenting with brushes and workflow.
• Began v3 on 24/06/2023 reusing some from v2 that still looked okay. Garbage Girl ended up becoming the first completed page of v3.
• 38 completed pages as of 12/10/2023.

15/10/2023:

• 4 pages completed, bringing total to 39. Started on a 5th.
• Tickles is a fucking bitch to draw.

22/10/2023:

• 2 pages completed, bringing total to 41.
• Editing pre-existing pages for Newgrounds release.

29/10/2023:

• 2 pages completed, bringing total to 43.
• "Newgrounds" edits completed.
• Not really feeling it this week.
• Patrons are in for a bit of a nasty surprise.

05/11/2023:

• 3 pages completed, bringing total to 46.
• 30 page preview of chapter 1 uploaded to NG on 31/10/2023 (AEST) and got frontpaged (thank you!!!)
• said 30 pages are being translated to Spanish.

12/11/2023:

• 6 pages completed (WOO), bringing total to 52.
• Spanish translation of pages 1 - 30 completed by @gabbo_sketches

19/11/2023:

• 3 pages completed, bringing total to 55.
• Considering posting another preview when I reach 60 - 70 pages (however long that takes)
• Changed title to Bury Everyone (there's already a comic called Dead Clown which I feel is too close). "Death Clown" will be the title of Chapter 1.

26/11/2023:

• 3 pages completed, bringing total to 58
• I FUCKING HATE CROWD SHOTS
• Going to be slowing down after this week due to eye problems (losing vision in my left. Possibly an infection). Seeing a doctor on Wednesday.

03/12/2023:

• 2 pages completed, bringing total to 60. Started on a third
• My eyes are fine meaning it's a brain/nerve issue. Turned out to be Optic Neuritis

10/12/2023:

• 4 pages completed, bringing total to 64.
• THIRD ACT BABY!!

17/12/2023:

• 5 pages completed, bringing total to 69

24/12/2023:

• 10 pages completed, bringing total to 79

31/12/2023:

• Chapter 1 completed with 87 total pages (including prologue and cover)
• I better get on those rewards

Next update 07/01/2024

I know some people already saw it on my Garbage Girl post, but I'm planning on putting something Death Clown related up for Halloween. I was originally planning the whole chapter but It doesn't look like that's happening. It's currently 36 pages and it's most likely going to end up being 60+ so unless the webcomic gods smile upon me rebooting my series, it doesn't look like it'll be finished by the end of the month.

Regardless of what state the chapter is in, I'll be putting the first 24 pages up on the 31st of October.

See you then!

I'm rebooting the comic and working on another video. No idea when they'll be done, but I'm feeling pretty good about both right now. We'll see how it goes. Let's see what I've learned I guess.

Sorry for the lack of concrete updates/news on chapter 11. I’ve been in kind of an abusive relationship with Death Clown these last few months. The project has become extremely taxing on my mental health but for some reason I can’t stop myself going back to it. I love these characters and want to tell their stories but the longer I work on it the more it becomes clear that I’m not prepared for such a project. My consistent failure to come out with content I’m satisfied with has deteriorated to the point of monthly episodes of impulsive behaviour and derealisation. As of writing this, I am thoroughly burnt out on drawing webcomics.

3 month gaps between chapters

For some reason regardless of length, whether it be 17 pages or 40, new chapters always take anywhere between 2 - 4 months to complete. The fact they’ve consistently taken this long to to release despite the different circumstances surrounding each chapter’s development is really fucking frustrating. I don’t know how it manages to almost always take 3 months. It feels like a sick joke.

Failed experiments

I’ve changed so much about my process in an effort to make working on it smoother, especially since the start of this year, but every attempt so far has either made things less efficient or ugly. In most cases both. I’ve reached a point now where I don’t know where to take my style. Whenever I look at my art, it almost feels as if it’s not mine. I used to joke that I frankensteined my art style out of things I like but I feel that’s more relevant now than ever. I know a lot of people like the “mould brush” but to me it just looks muddy and like trying to add detail where it doesn’t belong. I haven’t fully figured out how to use it.

Unsatisfied with output

The early chapters are dogshit. Obviously it’s natural for a series to improve as it goes but the fact everything that comes next is built on that foundation makes it difficult for me to appreciate the series as a whole. It will always be tainted by my inexperienced younger self and his weird art and dialogue. The obvious solution to this issue would be to start over and reboot, which I have been trying since chapter 10. Even then, part of me doesn’t want to throw away the last 3 years of work, which has prevented me from feeling joy in either version of the series.

I think I have a complex

I’ll fully concede that such a strong reaction isn't normal and is entirely up to my upbringing. Everyone knows the artist is the worst critic but I feel this goes beyond that. In any case, it's not healthy. Growing up I was only really praised for my artistic ability. Any attempt to branch out and try new things was met with apathy, and failure was met with harsh punishment. I wouldn't say I've become an adult that can't handle criticism, but the amount of criticism I give to myself is far beyond what's healthy. If you've read my recent news posts, you know what this entails.

TLDR:

Working on Death Clown is causing intense stress and any attempt to make things easier is just making it worse. For the sake of my health I have to put it to bed.

I'm sorry.

Wanted to do a quick news post since I left the last one on a pretty shitty note.

Still struggling with art but there's a few pieces I think are worth posting I guess. I'm still writing the script for part 2 of "Deadman Wonderland is Beautiful" but I'm still not sure when I'll be able to record. If you read my Death Clown blogs then you know I don't like setting dates for myself. It comes out when it's finished, as always.

Thanks to my job I can finally afford my therapist again. It turns out I've been suffering from anxiety/stress induced derealisation. It's hard to describe to someone that's never experienced it, but it almost feels like dreaming.

During an episode, I'll feel trapped but at the same time kind of free? I become easily irritated and act purely on impulse with no regard for consequence. Why would I care when nothing feels real?

I don't think much will change because of it. It's something I've struggled with my whole life except now I know what to call it. Idk. I have to get back to drawing frogs.

This year so far has been one of the worst for me in terms of art. As I write this, I'm 4 months into a cycle of dissatisfaction and burnout with no end in sight. I'm extremely disappointed in myself for the weak turnout so far and I'm sorry.

I'm trying everything I can think of. Nothing looks right. I don't even know what direction I want to take with my style in anymore. The whole point of the change was to speed up my rendering for future DC chapters but I can't practice rendering when I can't even finish a draft. Nothing is going well.

On top of everthing else I've been breaking down every few weeks since December. It's not helping things. My chest hurts. Even the most minor inconveniences have sent me into fits of screaming these last few days. At this point I'm seriously considering the psych ward but I don't want to lose my job.

I'm also back on twitter because I don't know what I'm doing. Let's see how long that lasts I guess. Fuck this.

Hello worms.

After 3 weeks off the platform I've decided not to return to twitter, at least not for a few months. This is probably the most popular opinion in the center of the universe that is the United States, but Twitter is the best argument for mass-execution and imminent destruction of western civilisation. This has nothing to do with the man in charge and everything to do with the little Hitlers that use it.

I already know if I posted this there instead of on NG I'd get all these responses from addicts saying "yeah twitter sucks I hate it" which is complete bullshit. They can leave whenever they want and yet don't. The fact that they still use it daily when they supposedly hate Elon Musk SOOOO much is proof that they love it. I remember when he first bought the place and everyone said the platform was so good before he came along. Don't make me laugh. It always has been and always will be shit. The only difference now is you actually can remember the name of the guy running it.

I already know I'm gonna get that one asshole telling me "but you have so many followers!" and if you think I care about big number, you clearly don't know who you're talking to. Stop projecting your insecurities onto me. I have similar thoughts about Instagram too but it's slightly more tolerable. Slightly.

Even if I wanted to, the scroll bar is broken and registers as me clicking off so I can't post images, only save drafts. I don't care enough to find a fix so they can all kiss my ass. I don't apologise for shit. I have no respect for the platform or the invertebrates that use it. Only pity.

That's all. All of you go straight to hell.

It's 2023 everywhere on Earth now so I wanted to start off this blog by saying the troubles of the world and your life will not magically be solved by a trip around the sun. Magic isn't real. Grow up.

That being said, best of luck. I started my second day of the new year by giving my ivy plant too much water and having it leak onto my laptop and tablet so we're off to a brilliant start. Not sure if water actually got into the electronics of the pc but it definitely did with my tablet so that will need to be replaced. Thankfully I have a job now so it's not a huge issue. As long as my harddrive is undamaged, nothing of true value will be lost. Even so, I may not be posting art for a while.

I linked to the twitter post of my instagram screenshot on my last Drupe pic where I said I was done with social media. For those out of the loop I had a manic nuclear meltdown on twitter fueled by burnout, paranoia over my job and general hatred for all of humanity where I tried to get my account suspended and push everyone away. It didn't work. Some people even seemed into it, so I saw myself out. Instagram lasted a little longer, I finished one last commission and now I'm only using it to dm like 3 people. I've completely abandoned twitter. While I don't plan on crawling back anytime soon, Newgrounds is less shite than the others. I might still pop in and see what's going on here but don't expect art until chapter 10 is finished. The rest can all drink my diarrhoea and get fucked by a million dolphins for all I care.

The next part is just dumb rant shit, you can ignore it if you want.

Something I've struggled with since my teen years is complete and utter disdain for the human race. It sounds like dumb edgelord shit but it's seriously affected me to the point where I won't let myself get close to anyone anymore. As soon as I can read them, it's over.

People on the internet especially are extremely easy to read because they broadcast their every thought. I'm the same, but fuck me if everyone isn't so predictable. All anyone does is chase what will make them look the most virtuous in that moment for internet clout. Maybe this part will upset some people, but it makes me fucking sick when I see someone post some trite piece of art mere hours or even minutes after a some disaster or current event and everyone just eats it up like the unthinking piranhas they are. Whenever I see it, I try to imagine what possessed them to shit something out so quickly. I can't help but think they just want sympathy likes for a tragedy that doesn't even affect them. Especially when it's some petty internet gossip shit and everyone vomits forth some lazy four panel comic. Shit like this makes me absolutely despise the sewerage that is the internet artist sphere. I swear there are AI art generators with more of a soul than these people. All that to say, whenever I think I've found a place I belong I keep seeing the same shitty behaviour. Same adherence to dumbass trends that age like eggs. Same lack of critical thinking and individuality. It's burned into the human gene pool. I don't know where to look anymore.

While I've been working on chapter 7, gabbo_sketches on twitter and instagram has been working hard translating the 6 currently available chapters of Death Clown into Spanish. When both versions of chapter 7 are completed, I'll begin updating the site and add the Spanish chapters on their own page. Below is his translation of the beach episode as a preview. Chapter 7 and Payaso de la Muerte (as we've been calling it) will be out in April.

As a sidenote, a few people have offered to translate it into their own native languages when I made the announcement on my social medias. If you want to translate Death Clown, go for it. That being said it's your responsibility to keep it going. I most likely won't upload it to the website (keeping everything up to date in English is enough of a chore in itself) but I'll add links to whatever mirror site you end up putting it on. I probably won't get involved in the same way I have been in this project but I'm happy to support!